iftomorrownevercomes

I’ll be stronger tomorrow
I won’t rely so much on you tomorrow
I’ll be myself again tomorrow
I won’t be sad tomorrow

Ironically, I’ve been telling myself the same things for the past 2 weeks.
When is it ever going to be tomorrow?!
I wanna let go NOW, but I don’t want to let it all go….

unfulfilleddesires

In the end, i didn't get my final wish.

authorsrandomramblings

“What are you doing?! I need that!!”
“No you don’t”
“Yes I do”
“It’s better this way. It’s for your own good”
“I don’t care about my own good, please just give it back”
“NO”
“Why not?”
“Cause you can’t live like this forever!”
“Watch me”
“No you can’t have it”
“Please…..”

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If you could teleport by folding space, and time travel by applying the same principle to time, it would still not work.
Simply because while you can move freely between space, the same principle does not apply to time.
You can only move forward in time but never backwards.
So folding time would only allow you to travel forward in time.
It will be useful to go to the future to see how the world ends but still be unable to do anything about it because you cannot go back to the past to change it or warn someone about it.
Unless…. Unless of course Einstein was right! Then that changes everything.

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“Oh look its sunny!”
“I don’t see the sun. It’s dark here.”
“Are you kidding me?”
“Are you?!”

“When you’re travelling in a tunnel so dark, you will be able to see even the faintest of light”
“I’ve closed my eyes”

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Fear of being alone. What if one day you woke up and realise you’re the only person left alive on Earth?! Scary thought?!
What would you do?! How would you survive?!
That used to be my greatest fear. NOTE : USED TO
It will be a much better world being all alone
When your living with the whole world against you,
Friends telling lies lies lies
One side pushing you away, while you push the other side away!
Why do they not see the good I see in you
Why do you not see the good they see in me

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Every night we stay awake
After every hit we take
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t hate you yet

Everytime we throw a fight
Thinking that we’re always right
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t hate you yet

Everytime you make me cry
Everytime you say goodbye
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t hate you yet

Everytime I lie awake in bed
Thinking of the words you said
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t hate you yet

Every lie they said to us
Everyone who looks and curse
Even if those words are true
How can I bring myself to hate you

Yet on the day you walked away
I still won’t listen to what they say
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t hate you yet

Now we’re slowly growing apart
Trying to mend my broken heart
Every feeling that I get
Why do I not hate you yet

waitingforyou.....

Where are you?!
His eyes darted around the screen to check
Opening and closing the different windows and tabs he had in front of him
Where are you?
He checked all icons he had open searching for that familiar name
‘Heya’ A window popped up right before his eyes
He looked up, hopeful for a second
Sigh
He rested his head on his hand and typed a respond lazily with his other
Where are you?
His head grew heavy and his breath grew slow
I need to see you, talk to you
Where are you?
Please?!
I need you

whathappensnow

What happens when everything good in your life falls apart?!
What happens when the 1 thing you look forward to every weekend is taken away?!
What happens when you get everything you work for only to realise its not what you want?!
What happens when the only person who can wipe the tear from your eyes was the person who gave it to you in the first place?!

So what happens now?!

whydowefalldown

하얗게 흐려진 그림과 
지워진듯한 내 향기가 
눈부신 구름 속에 가려져요 

아무 말 없는 내 가슴이 
천천히 맘을 옮겨보고 
그 사이로 스쳐간 시간만 
손에 놓여져 있어요 

I'm holding back the tears 
무겁지 않게 나의 마음을 매고 걸어요 
가깝진 않고 멀지 않은 곳에 
다른 내가 서있죠 
난 울지 않아요 

또 다시 두 손을 모으죠 
어딘가 들릴 그 곳에 
추억이 아닌 지금을 난 살아가요 

바보 같지만 늘 함께 있어요 
비우고 싶은 그 아픔이 
온몸으로 흐르는 내 눈물을 마르게 하죠 

I'm living with my tears 
무겁지 않게 나의 마음을 매고 걸어요 
가깝진 않고 멀지 않은 곳에 
다른 내가 서있죠 
울지 않아요 난 

I'm holding back the tears 
가볍지 않게 나의 믿음을 매고 뛰어요 
높지도 않고 낮지 않은 곳에 
또 다른 내가 서 있죠 
작은 미소로 난 웃을 수 있죠

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So why do we fall down? 

To learn to pick ourselves back up again...

flytheoceaninasilverplane

Finally back in London after the last sampah phase of my life! 

I don't know what it is about being here, maybe it's the gloomy weather (dark, cold & rainy), maybe it's the discriminatory glances you sometimes get, maybe it's the crapartments we live in or maybe it's the lack of activities to do, but somehow something always doesn't feel right for the first few days. 

Maybe it's just homesick! 

They say home is where the heart is. I guess they were right! 

thestorythusfar

YUP! I've finally graduated from L.S.E 

After all the sweat, blood and tears, here comes a brand new shiny economist ready to face whatever challenges the world can throw at him (biggest one would be to keep my current job). 

Throughout my 3 years at uni, I've heard many complains about the way LSE operates: 

"LSE doesn't teach us anything here except how to get a job"

"It's too competitive here, if you don't get 4 firsts, you're screwed! If you don't get an internship, it's the end of the world" 

"It's nothing but an investment banking school teaching you how to make money"

"They brainwash you to thinking giving 100 hours a week to your job is something glamorous" 

I think there are definitely some truths behind those statements above. So, what have i learnt after my 3 years of studying. I've definitely gotten a bit better at maths and stats, got quite a bit of knowledge about the laws of supply and demand (most of which are too theoretical to be applied to real life) and I've gotten quite a good understanding of the financial world and the sh*t we are in now. 

Is LSE really as bad as students complain it is?! Why then do so many top students from all over the world go there?! 

Well, it is true that we have no more than 12 hours of classes a week, 8 of which may be considered as optional depending on how bad the lecturer is. And the rest is self-study. It's literally jumping into the sea to learn how to swim.

And it is also true that competition gets extremely high especially closer to exam time, so much so that going to the library after lunch hour would earn you a spot on the floor. (Yes, kiasuness in LSE is at an all different level. WARNING to prospective students: LSE is not for the feint of heart!) 

And not to mention LSE has a brainwashing device that makes all students want to sign their life away with an investment bank. 

But at the end of the day, I would have to say despite of how much we bad mouth the school, I did have a lot of fun as a student here. 

I met some "special" people. Not special as in cacat, though some of them may seem to be that way! 

Made some new friends

Had awesome adventures around



And discovered a different side of me

So after everything has been said and done, I would say without a doubt that I have absolutely no regrets choosing LSE and the past 3 years I spent here was a BLAST! 

andoffwegoagain

After abandoning my old blog about 2 years ago, why then did i decide to start a new blog?!
Maybe it's to write down my daily thoughts before my mind becomes overly congested, or maybe it's to record down significant events before they get lost forever or maybe it's just to rant. Who knows?!
Whatever the reason, let's hope this one will last this time round.

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